The loneliness is the worst part, I think...I can be surrounded by people and still feel lonely because I do not know, and I am not known, in that way that Todd and I knew one another...and *that* is what makes this sometimes feel hopeless...that I will never know or be known in this way again.
i wish i had something comforting to say, but all words seem inadequate. i hear you. i feel sad that you have lost Todd and your relationship and alternately so very grateful that you had each other.
ReplyDeleteI am grateful too. I really, really am.
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