Tuesday, October 9, 2012

I Will Survive, Part 2

Well, I was having a rough week.  I have actually had quite a few lately.  I found myself whining inwardly A LOT!  I am sure I was whining outwardly too, but the inward whining was really loud. 

One particular morning last week, I caught myself in a funk but singing lyrics to that song over and over.

"Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Thinking how you did me wrong.
And I grew strong!

"So now you're back...
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face.
I should have changed that stupid lock!
I should have made you leave your key!
If I had known for just one second you'd be back to bother me.

"Go on now, go, walk out that door!
Just turn around now‚
cause you're not welcome any more.

"And you see me somebody new!
I'm not that chained-up little person still in love with you."

I realized this is a great song with which to serenade that beast, self-pity. It made me laugh out loud when I thought about it. So I sang louder in hopes of drowning out my whiny-ness. It worked. Of course, it didn't last. I found myself again, today, swimming in self-pity, self-doubt and disappointment in myself and my abilities.  BUT...I am going to start singing again...and I think tonight I'll add some dance moves ;-) 

All is well.