Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Disbelief
This week I seem to be dealing with disbelief that he is gone. I really keep thinking/imagining that surely he will walk through the door, walk up behind me, and give me a big hug any minute now. Tonight I asked Caley if she ever imagines Daddy walking through the door...and she said matter-of-factly "you asked me that last night momma." :-( I didn't remember doing that. Then she came over and gave me a hug...really too much to ask from my sweet baby girl...she is old and wise for her years. She has always been this way (although she also has a silly streak a mile long.) I love her beyond words.
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how lucky you are to have Caley in your life. she sounds like a kind and very intuitive person.
ReplyDeleteI know. I think that Bob is here in some way that maybe he can hear me - hear my thoughts - and know that I love him. I pray that this is true.
ReplyDeleteI still feel that way about Rob and it has been 12 years and 5 days since he died. I am still inclined to think of picking up the phone to call him when I get some really good news or when I need to have an "ugly cry". How can it be that he's gone?
ReplyDeleteI saw Todd a few days ago...as if he were really in flesh - but it was only my imagination.
ReplyDeleteI think I must have been doing some mindless chore and all of a sudden he just popped into view. I believe it was the Holy Spirit prompting me to pray for you and the kids. I did. I love you. D