Monday, April 12, 2010

Pressing On

This was a difficult weekend. Actually it's been a extraordinarily difficult few weeks. It feels a little like my heart is being ripped up and trampled on all over again. I love my new home, but I still miss the old one (where we lived very happily as a family of four) and all its good memories. I haven't really wanted to do anything much, but there is much to be done. Some days it has been very easy to slip into a pity party, but for the most part I'm just sad. I know a lot of it is being hammered with the many decisions that must be made...decisions that Todd and I have always made together. I have had a lot of help, and for that I am sooooooooooo thankful.

I am still not totally moved out. Each time I go back to the house, I am assaulted by emotions as I look around at a home that is clearly not lived in any more, but is not yet empty of the things that once resided in a cheerful household--and I know that no matter what I do I can't reconstruct it in another location...and to try, of course, would be unhealthy. Making healthy emotional choices is sometimes a real struggle and sometimes not so much, but that was pretty much true for me even before August 2. Overall, though, I think I am headed in the right direction, and everything I see in my children tells me they are too.

Hang tough.


  1. Susan,
    I was reading a devotion on and thought this was appropriate. The devotion is good, the scripture that resonates with me most is found in(2 Corinthians 4:7-8, NLT)

    "…we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves. We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair…" (2 Corinthians 4:7-8, NLT)

    "The Father of compassion and the God of all comfort…comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort others …" (2 Corinthians 1:3-4, NIV)

    Praying for you today!

  2. I love that scripture too, and I am so glad you reminded me of it. It is appropriate and resonates loudly with me too.

  3. "When peace like a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea-billows roll - Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, It is well, it is well with my soul."

    H.G. Spafford (described as "a man of unususal intelligence and refinement, deeply spiritual, and a devoted student of the Scriptures") was heavily invested in real estate until the Chicago Fire of 1871. Weeks later desiring rest for his wife and four daughters as well as wishing to assist his friend D.L. Moody in a campaign in Great Britain, Spafford planned a European trip for his family. Due to last minute business developments, he had to remain in Chicago and expected to follow.

    Days later, Mrs. Spafford cabled her husband with these two words: "Saved alone" after their ship was struck by another vessel and sank in twelve minutes. As Spafford traveled to meet his bereaved wife, it is thought that on the sea where his four daughters drowned, he penned the text "When sorrows like sea billows roll.."

    Spafford reminds us in the first stanza life is full of sorrows and trials BUT he goes on in the third and fourth stanza to point out the redemptive work of Christ and His glorious Second Coming.

    It Is Well With My Soul
    When peace like a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea-billows roll - Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, It is well, it is well with my soul.

    Tho Satan should buffet, tho trials should come, Let this blest assurance control, That Christ hath regarded my helpless estate, And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

    My sin - O the bliss of this glorious tho't - My sin, not in part, but the whole, Is nailed to the cross and I bear it no more: Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

    And, Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight, The clouds be rolled back as a scroll: The trump shall resoundand the Lord shall descend, "Even so" - it is well with my soul.

    It is well with my soul, It is well, it is well with my soul.

    "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." Psalm 46:1

  4. Oh how I LOVE that song!!! If only I could live that every day!!! That is my hearts stand on this conviction....yes .. "it is well with my soul"....through Christ!!!

    I also love the song by Scott Krippayne which lyrics say..." sometimes He calms the storm, and other times He calms the child."

    Finding God's peace through the storms of life.