My sweet baby girl cried her eyes out last night because she misses her daddy. My son kept saying "Please don't cry because that makes me feel like crying too." He also added he was having trouble remembering things he did with Daddy because it has been so long. I was trying to soothe them both with words, but I realize what they needed most was for me to hold them (which, of course, I did) and not say anything, because there is nothing to be said. It sucks…and my heart is breaking alongside theirs.
Oh my heart breaks for them too...and you...I am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteYep it sucks. And I never use that word but it just fits in this situation.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. It is hard on a couple of fronts: sad that Caley feels so bad and like Luke said, hard to watch someone you love hurt so much.
ReplyDeleteCaley is so grown up for her age. I think she may have been trying to "keep it together" for you and for Luke; just as we grownups have done for the past year and almost a half. I must admit to trying to smile when all I need is a good old fashioned cry. You are doing a fantastic job of taking care of them. They are such beautiful and loving children which I attribute to you and Todd. Sometimes we just need to cry our eyes out, for it is our souls and hearts that long for Todd. There are times that John and I sit and talk about the times we shared together and I can't hold back the tears from streaming. I miss him too.
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